Why do I have to be a pig by the Chinese Horoscope?

I Hate it soo much as pigs are lunch and dinner and they are fat, smelly and ugly.
I Hate the Chinese Horoscopes why not a Dragon or a Tiger.
The Dragon sounds more like me.
My brother and dad pick on me, as I was a pig. Like hahaha you dirty, smelly, pig ect. When I was a kid.

I like to kill myself, then I’m not a stupid pig anymore.

I was born 1983 September.